Hello Disco and welcome:
You wrote:
I have never been sexually abused and have never had gay thoughts and i constantly check women out but feel more like a pervert.
Since this site is for male survivors of sexual abuse and their friends and family, I'm wondering what kind of help you are looking for?

If you are struggling with feelings that you may hurt someone else sexually, I suggest you check out http://www.stopitnow.org

There are likely a number of sites for those who are questioning their sexual orientation. Some are religious and others purely secular.

Please let us know how we might be able to help you.

Ken Singer

Blissfully retired after 35 years treating sexual abuse