Absolutely no need to apologize...and no need to talk if you are not ready...I don't blame you for wanting to "check out" this bulletin board...it is you who must be comfortable. I guess in all chat rooms or board services you will always find all kinds of people at all different stages in their healing...the one thing here most of us share in common is that we are survivors. Sometimes sharing how one feels and realizing that there are many other men out there experiencing the same feelings, emotions, confusion regarding their past, as other survivors, can help one feel not so alone. I hope your experience here is a positive one. Be well...Mark