sorry to hear about the panic attacks and bad dreams. those increased for me when i first started dealing with all the memories connected to the abuse. i am glad to say that as i dealt with them, the scary symptoms decreased in frequency and severity. it may mean that you need to avoid the distractions for a while and face it head on. i found MS a good substitute for some of my distraction tactics. so don't quit - keep on pushing through. it may get a bit worse for a while - but will eventually get better.
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....