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#466558 - 06/13/14 10:10 AM puppet
bey Offline


Registered: 01/28/10
Posts: 427
Loc: canada
sometimes i feel like
who i am
is just a reflection of
who you wanted me to be
every now and then i think
i'm making choices for myself
being my own man
but in the end i'm still tied to these
marionette strings
i think
i stopped noticing them a while ago
started feeling like a Real Boy
tried to climb out of this puppet theatre
but in the end
i always get pulled back on stage
my choices aren't mine
not even now
and i don't know how to cut myself free
when you are the people who made me into me
when you are in me as deep as my cells
and even now
despite everything you did to me
what bad people you were
and the fact you are long long dead
i want to make you happy

sometimes i feel like there is no real me
i'm still who you wanted me to be
no matter how much i say i'm done
i'm forever and always your fucking son.
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I guess this is growing up.

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#466810 - 06/19/14 10:29 PM Re: puppet [Re: bey]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
That's a wonderfully powerful poem, bey, and one I can relate to very well, too. So many of your phrasings really cut to the soul - "who i am is just a reflection of who you wanted me to be"; "i'm still tied to these marionette strings"; "you are in me as deep as my cells"; "despite...the fact you are long long dead i want to make you happy"; "sometimes i feel like there is no real me i'm still who you wanted me to be no matter how much i say i'm done i'm forever and always your fucking son."

Just, wow. Right on point.
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