I've been thinking about this thread for the last couple of days. I'm wondering why, in my case, recovery has taken so long. EMDR greatly speeded things up for me. I had about 2 dozen sessions of about a dozen each separated by some months.
I knew at the time that I should keep notes on the individual sessions, but I didn't. Lots of the sessions were terribly painful in that it took me to the heart of a tortured boy (me). But then after several days I experienced an emotional freedom I haven't experienced for a long, long time. The temporary pain was clearly worth it.
So, I compare EMDR with surgery which removes a painful condition and leaves me feeling better. Yes it was temporarily very agonizing but it had permanent and good effects.
I've been seeing another specialist T because of the unusual nature of where I think I need to go next. I haven't solved this riddle yet.
What I'm talking about has to do with psycho-surgery performed on me during a feigned tonsillectomy when I was 13. I believe that "they" did several things to me and paid my father for my "use" in the experiments. I don't have clear memories (yet?). I have found various experiments on minds of children reported in some of the books I've been reading. But I need additional help with it. My current T has been hesitant to use EMDR and/or hypnotherapy on me. I'm not completely sure of why this is. Some people would call this crazy. I guess it is crazy. But I've found 4 or 5 experiments performed on children in various books I've been reading. One of them is:http://www.amazon.com/Nation-Betrayed-Experiments-Performed-Annotated-ebook/dp/B005IDOXL6/
There are a couple of experiments described in this book. I think I will post them separately because I think it will help me to think things through.