last August i went back to the house and 2 schools where most of the abuse was done to me. i felt i was as prepared as i could be but wondered if i would be able to go through with it. i had been through about 20 months of pretty intense therapy and had brought support along on the trip - my very encouraging wife.
i was visiting my brother who still lives in the area and was leaving his place at the end of our visit - wondering if i should go back to the scenes or not - when i was suddenly seized by a compulsion to see it through. i felt like it was inevitable and i just HAD to do it. (i posted about it in another thread.) it was not easy but i did it - and in the process reclaimed some lost ground. i have felt much stronger since then - and the memories have lost a lot of their power over me.
for others it might be different - i think a lot of my positive outcome was in the preparation and timing.
i hope you will be able to overcome the effects of your experiences - whether you ever go back there or not. it may be enough to get to the point where you know you don't need to go back.
Edited by traveler (10/23/13 07:49 PM)
"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"