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#445629 - 08/27/13 11:54 PM Ancestors Blessings
risingagain Offline

Registered: 11/10/10
Posts: 597
Loc: Vancouver, BC, Canada

I sat in ceremony with the vine of the soul.
This is what I saw and felt.

The spirit of a trauma,
A screaming child
Desperate for healing
Raped and tied and Abandoned
Eleven year old sister
Nine year old brother
Forty three year old father
Father's penis in my anus he's tearing
My body, pressed up against my sister
My sister, tied down she's torn
All of our deep silenced cries
Pelvis against pelvis against pelvis,
my dad grunting a terrible rhythm
a bloody condom thrown at my head
"See what you did, " he said.

Who are the perpetrators, who are the victims?
When Every one that eats is a predator.
What is left to do
When we've moved beyond blame?

Now I see innocent children
Broken on a battlefield called home
I can barely walk or talk

These were unspeakable family wounds
A spiral dance of generations
Twisted with her hatred of him
And his hatred of her
And our hatred of one another

Spirit of this trauma
Dividing my family and so many others
For the past seven generations
Seducing good people to do monstrous things

Spirit of this trauma,
I face you in myself
with All the compassion
Of the ages.
my desire to end suffering
my sword bloody
my heart broken open,
Bare naked helplessness
Yes, trauma spirit,
I am repaired when I embrace you.

Then, my Grandfathers' blessings are revealed to me,
hidden beneath the pain.
On the stone tablet
With the breath of Allah
My Grandfathers came
and Bestowed their blessings, whispering,
"Trust, my child"
Soft ancient hands are placed
holding me as I'm shaking
Cooing in my baby ear
Great big Grampa smiles
"We're so very very happy you came, precious little one. So very very happy you came. So very very happy. you made it!"
Soft baby playing and snoozing innocently against my chest
Honorable warrior protecting a child
Rest under the tree of Life
Show me my life's mission
I am awoken.

Our ancestors' blessings
show us what to do,
They Give us our Life back
They Light our way back home

Fathers and sons and daughters and mothers
Healing the wounds of generations
In a hospital bed shaking
Mercy mercy
Great thanks & praise.

Edited by risingagain (08/28/13 12:06 AM)

#445644 - 08/28/13 03:28 AM Re: Ancestors Blessings [Re: risingagain]
ghostlights Offline

Registered: 11/22/11
Posts: 26
Loc: Upstate NY
What a beautiful vision, emerging from such horror. The victim of such cruelty becoming the healer and protector, breaker of the chain. Surrounded, blessed and empowered by the spirits of the ancestors. Thanks for sharing this.

#445659 - 08/28/13 05:03 AM Re: Ancestors Blessings [Re: risingagain]
risingagain Offline

Registered: 11/10/10
Posts: 597
Loc: Vancouver, BC, Canada
smile Thank you for seeing me.



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