This is a hard business: staying clean, on track, doing SA healing work, having a life, but it sure beats giving in to it! I often say I won't let my abusers win by surrendering my life, they got enough of it already, what's left is going to stay mine. We all get down and we've all had to start over, we've all felt like giving up, I've been there more times than I remember and our brothers here have been there too. I'm glad that you're on the mend, you've taken an important step forward! Although it may not feel like it now, in time, with more work towards healing and with support, it will get better and better for you.
You will be okay...
Gary / 1.healing
"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
"You cannot find peace by avoiding life."