Im in a strange place in my life. I know without a doubt that I was victim of sexual abuse, multiple incidents/perps over time. I remember some of stuff completely, some only in flashes and some I can only guess about due to strong reactions Ive had and continue to have. Im limited in terms of care I receive. Im still having flashes of memory and I habe periods where I just switch off, isolate, get depressed, pull away. I cannot work and have a very difficult time maintaining even simplest relationships. Im scared of dating, Ive had bad results in past, I seem to attract women who have very bad sex issues of their own, promiscuity, betrayal, etc. I feel like finding a hole, crawling in and staying there. How does this get better? How can I come back from this. It seems like some people just deal and keep skipping along-although many Ive known that do this are sex addicts or whatever-at least they can function. I feel like a freak among freaks because I havent acted out, etc in many ways. I keep seeking a stable relationship with the worst possible candidates. Someone please help me. What does DIDIS mean? Is there a diagnosis for what I have? WTF do I do? Im so confused, I feel like I should just withdraw from society for good, like there is no place for me. Can anyone relate to this? Is there anybody out there thats been through similar stuff?
Edited by Zug (05/15/13 12:57 PM)
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