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#432915 - 04/29/13 11:48 PM Because I cried...
csasurvivor1992 Offline

Registered: 03/25/13
Posts: 132
Loc: Texas was better than yesterday.

Because I grieved, I no longer hope for the day when my dad will come back.

Because I let go, I have begun to figure out who I am.

Because I cried, I have begun to accept the awful nature of the experiences I endured.

Because I grieved, I have relaxed my expectation that the world will stop for me.

I see now what was done to me, the effects it's had on me, and the long road ahead. But today was a good day. I know they won't always be. Today was a good day and so I'll celebrate that. Because I cried.

I hope you can find the time to cry, too.
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground, carry on. ~Fun.

#432930 - 04/30/13 01:18 AM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
ThisMan Offline

Registered: 01/23/13
Posts: 778
Loc: upper south

I am glad you are able to grieve today...and I am sorry you have the need to do so. It seems the grief doesn't start until we are able to acknowledge what was done to us, the terrible toll it has taken on our lives, on our spirits, on every thing we want and hold dear. The world doesn't stop, it doesn't even slow down and notice the man standing in the shadows of sexual abuse. And I have learned that even if it were to notice, it would not know what to do or say.

I am still discovering the damage done to me because of this THING that the world ignores. I cried today, just for an instant, as I have done almost everyday for 6 months, so I will heed your words and celebrate beside you.

Thanks for the beautiful posting.


Edited by ThisMan (04/30/13 01:19 AM)
For now we see through a glass, darkly.

#432931 - 04/30/13 01:29 AM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 973
Loc: Canada
Last night I cried too ... and this morning ... and this afternoon ... and a little now.

I didn't find the time to cry ... it found me.

Tears have the nasty habit of doing that.

They first come announced ... and ...

Once invited in ... they never go away again ...

And for that I am very grateful.

Enjoy your tears ... revel in them ... cherish them ...

welcome them in as you would a treasured guest ...

because that's what they are.

They are only visiting you ... they don't belong to you ...

They are on loan ...

From the child you used to be ... to the man you have become.

A man strong enough to cry.
Experience is a brutal teacher.

#432936 - 04/30/13 01:35 AM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 973
Loc: Canada
... they first come "unannounced"
Experience is a brutal teacher.

#433007 - 04/30/13 12:58 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
concerned_husky Offline

Registered: 08/30/12
Posts: 766

Edited by concerned_husky (08/30/15 10:03 AM)
Edit Reason: Reducing ties with MS.

"Only the solitary seek the truth, and they break with all those who don't love it sufficiently." - Pasternak

#433037 - 04/30/13 04:48 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
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Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/27/14 04:14 AM)


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