I've read about horrible reactions that need a lot of support that was the result of only one incident of CSA or ASA. We're here for you. It's a funny (not ha ha funny) thing about pain is that it always finds a way to fester. The longer the person waits to start therapy that infection becomes harder and harder to deal with.
Just yesterday I noticed a couple of 13 year olds walking around in the parking lot by the bus company I work for and trying to get a glimpse of what the mechanics are working on. There was a blond kid there which caught my attention and I looked at those 4-5 kids and I thought to myself, shit that's the size I was when I was already in the game (prostitution). It sure brings the reality of what happened to me into focus. Scarey.
I'm going to try and engage myself with my 10 year old grandson in a game of cards (war) and see how it goes. My T has been trying to get me out of my dungeon. Lets see if I can handle something as simple as playing cards across the table from me.
Peace, Rainbows, Love, Healing & Hope
Stick around, It will get better....