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#515444 - 09/19/17 09:54 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
Chase Eric Offline
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Registered: 10/25/10
Posts: 2826
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for...


Carolina Liar - Show Me What I'm Looking For
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#515607 - 09/25/17 04:08 AM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
LinEar Offline


Registered: 06/02/15
Posts: 358
Loc: USA
Glen Phillips - Courage



I get so much out of this song; it can be a little upsetting, it can help the tears to flow -- it can also be comforting, uplifting, and make me feel very pensive and insightful.

Lyrics:
At the start of the conversation
I didn't have too much to say
I was needing some inspiration
And you just got in my way
I took a shot at an easy target
You were too stunned to say anything
You were the unsuspecting martyr
You were not the most dangerous game

Bring my courage back now
Bring it back to me
I'm tired of being afraid of what I can't change
I want to be living free

Well it could be that I was mistaken
Or maybe I deceived myself
But it's hard to understand somebody
Doesn't want to understand himself
There's an ocean of unlatched windows
And a world of unlocked homes
The only reason anybody can still feel safe
Is most people still knock on the door

Bring my courage back now
Would you bring it back to me
I'm tired of being afraid of what I can't change
I want to be living free
I don't want to be a prisoner
Bound in these chains
Don't want to be a prisoner
I want to be free again

And though we all return to dust
There's a lot of us in a terrible rush

Some take the road to Damascus
Some take the road to Hell
I'll take Highway One to the evergreens
And everything will turn out well

Bring my courage back now
Would you bring it back to me
I'm tired of being afraid of what I can't change
I want to be living free
I don't want to be a prisoner
Bound in these chains
Slave to my fear
I want to be free again
I want to be free again


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I've been a fan of Glen Phillips ever since I first heard him on Toad The Wet Sprocket's "All I Want" in 1992, on a Florida vacation that felt like a dream come true. I remember being in the back seat of the rental car and it was constantly on the radio. It was like it was my brain's first chance to escape the just-below-the-surface constant replays of earlier abuse (what I now know as a dissociative defense) and for a few days, everything felt right in the world. I specifically remember telling myself to hold on to that feeling. Really feels like my coming-of-age song. I was 12.



Lyrics:
Nothing's so loud
As hearing when we lie
The truth is not kind
And you've said neither am I
But the air outside so soft
Is saying everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close, to feel the same
All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, hear it say

Nothing's so cold
As closing the heart when all we need
Is to free the soul
But we wouldn't be that brave I know
And the air outside so soft,
Confessing everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same
All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say

And it won't matter now
Whatever happens will be
Though the air speaks of all we'll never be
It won't trouble me

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same
All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say

And it feels so close
Let it take me in
Let it hold me so
I can feel it say
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#517748 - 11/15/17 11:08 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: LinEar]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 242
Loc: Europe-Belgium
Beth Crowley: "I Am Not Nothing"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNJ--gHasOE

"I Am Not Nothing"

No one ever made me feel as small as you did
No one made me feel as cursed
I'd lie awake in bed just staring at the ceiling
Wondering if things would get worse

I was trapped under your thumb
Believing when you called it love

But I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing

I kept my head above the water
'Til the moment when all the elements aligned
And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit
And leave my demons far behind
You always said that I was weak
But the bravest thing I did was leave

So I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing

Looking up at the sky
I think I see the start of a sunrise

And I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing
I'll show you
That I am not nothing
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"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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