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#504466 - 11/29/16 10:10 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: Ceremony]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 232
Loc: Europe-Belgium
Thanks for your concern, I could do better Ceremony, but I don't want to hijack my post for this problem, there are other channels for that.
But for you, since it seems you could also like the following song. And of course because I obviously like it.

I really feel like a lot of their songs were written for/to/about me.

Blue October: "Chameleon Boy"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QBEUYVy-vY

"Chameleon Boy"

I changed my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here there are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So I nod my head
I'm ready for the world to see
The secret I kept here inside the man you thought I'd be
Slipped into coma calm
The coma where I calm myself down
Here comes excuses why I let you down

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

So now we've come upon the hardest thing I've ever done
It's telling you that I'm a mess
What sort of mess I mean
Is self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while I play instead the way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home and wish that I was in our bed
With this I'm telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do I ask you this
Will you help me through

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

I try to think of all the people I looked up to
While growing up who would I be
Now the twisted part
Where did all my idols end up
They've all passed away
Passed away

Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Chameleon Boy
I'm chameleon boy...
Chameleon boy...
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"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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#504468 - 11/29/16 10:42 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 232
Loc: Europe-Belgium
The following song is something rather different from the previous ones. As my mood just changed from the more depressive state to a more sorrow state of mind, where I feel so much regret for my lost childhood. Or just because I just don't seem to know what to do anymore, where I do belong, or if I will ever find the right way to go from here where I seem to stand still.

Kings Of Convenience: "Homesick"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY_J2kmQS9M

"Homesick"

I'll lose some sales and my boss won't be happy,
but I can't stop listening to the sound
of two soft voices
blended in perfection
from the reels of this record that I've found.

Every day there's a boy in the mirror asking me...
What are you doing here?
Finding all my previous motives
growing increasingly unclear.

I've traveled far and I've burned all the bridges
I believed as soon as I hit land
all the other options held before me,
would wither in the light of my plan.

So I'll lose some sales and my boss won't be happy,
but there's only one thing on my mind
searching boxes underneath the counter,
on a chance that on a tape I'd find...
a song for someone who needs somewhere to long for.

Homesick.
Because I no longer know where home is.
_________________________
"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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#504470 - 11/29/16 11:58 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 232
Loc: Europe-Belgium
And here's another song, totally different from what I normally post, or so I think. Although the title of the song should be 'He and His Darkness' to suit me better.

For me it's, me talking to my younger self:
Being angry at him at one moment, being grateful another moment.
I'd do anything to keep my younger self safe. And the ultimate wish to be a little boy again.
This song has everything what makes the turmoil in my head close of exploding.

Diary Of Dreams: "She And Her Darkness"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gs4Txv27OK8

"She And Her Darkness"

My heart weights minimum a ton
An army's feet pounding on my head
Maybe I'll wake up one day to notice
that all my life was just a dream...

And maybe I'll be better off without you
You left me here with all my thoughts
I'd write a zillion words or walk a million miles
I'd sleep on broken glass just not to lose your smiles

I travel for you around the world
Collecting moments, o how absurd
To bring you beauty, to bring you joy
I wish I'd be a little boy

Where is that silence you promised me?
Why is that distance so close to me?
Why is your violence still hurting me?
Why are your eyes avoiding me?

Let me say thank you for all that you have given me.
Thank you for everything you've done.
Forgive me for saying one last thing:
I miss you and I hope you hear this song!

I travel for you around the world
Collecting moments, o how absurd
To bring you beauty, to bring you joy
I wish I'd be a little boy

I'm dying for you, can't you see?
I'm lying for you to be free!
I hunger for you, 'cause I can't eat!
I'd vanish for you in defeat!
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"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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#504472 - 11/30/16 12:50 AM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
Ceremony Offline


Registered: 09/14/16
Posts: 452
Loc: Minnesota
Hope the blues break,
And a many hued dawn
Pleasantly surprises

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#504580 - 12/04/16 07:09 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 232
Loc: Europe-Belgium
Extra Trigger-alert because the following song is sung by a boychoir

For me this song is soothing. And the text is telling me my inner child is always there with me, even if I think he left. His shadow lingers on.


Libera: "Always With you"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clHUGaXyQpo

"Always With You"

Do you know me, who I am
I am always with you
I am near you every day
Always share what you do.

Follow the path to anywhere
A stranger in the world without you
Forever I will be there
The shadow you always knew.

If you think I’ve gone away
And I’m never with you
I am not so far away
Always shadowing you.

Follow the path to anywhere
A stranger in the world without you
Forever I will be there
The shadow you always knew.

Beati quorum via, integra est
Beati quorum via, integra est
(translation: Blessed are those whose way is intact)

Do you know me, who I am
I am always with you,
I am not so far away
Always shadowing you.

Always shadowing you.
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"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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#504601 - 12/05/16 02:59 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
Ceremony Offline


Registered: 09/14/16
Posts: 452
Loc: Minnesota
The song obviously had religious context and implies rhe Holy Spirit/God/Jesus. I intend that to be gently espoused, in an offhand way. I couldn't listen, but I did read.

That noted, the experience of the song, those boys and what should be innocence, seems stolen from me. I don't trust Priests, but that's developed since adulthood. I despise heavily organized religion...

Stopping now.

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#504629 - 12/06/16 03:32 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: john22]
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Registered: 04/04/14
Posts: 102
Loc: Florida, U.S.A
7 Years by Lukas Graham
The song has double meanings for me. Seven was the last good (innocent) year of my childhood. A dear friend did a cover of it on cello a few weeks before he was murdered. Now I cry for two reasons when I hear it.

Once I was seven years old my momma told me
Go make yourself some friends or you'll be lonely
Once I was seven years old

It was a big big world, but we thought we were bigger
Pushing each other to the limits, we were learning quicker
By eleven smoking herb and drinking burning liquor
Never rich so we were out to make that steady figure

Once I was eleven years old my daddy told me
Go get yourself a wife or you'll be lonely
Once I was eleven years old

I always had that dream like my daddy before me
So I started writing songs, I started writing stories
Something about that glory just always seemed to bore me
'Cause only those I really love will ever really know me

Once I was twenty years old, my story got told
Before the morning sun, when life was lonely
Once I was twenty years old

I only see my goals, I don't believe in failure
'Cause I know the smallest voices, they can make it major
I got my boys with me at least those in favor
And if we don't meet before I leave, I hope I'll see you later

Once I was twenty years old, my story got told
I was writing about everything, I saw before me
Once I was twenty years old
Soon we'll be thirty years old, our songs have been sold
We've traveled around the world and we're still roaming
Soon we'll be thirty years old

I'm still learning about life
My woman brought children for me
So I can sing them all my songs
And I can tell them stories
Most of my boys are with me
Some are still out seeking glory
And some I had to leave behind
My brother I'm still sorry

Soon I'll be sixty years old, my daddy got sixty-one
Remember life and then your life becomes a better one
I made a man so happy when I wrote a letter once
I hope my children come and visit, once or twice a month

Soon I'll be sixty years old, will I think the world is cold
Or will I have a lot of children who can warm me
Soon I'll be sixty years old
Soon I'll be sixty years old, will I think the world is cold
Or will I have a lot of children who can warm me
Soon I'll be sixty years old

Once I was seven years old, momma told me
Go make yourself some friends or you'll be lonely
Once I was seven years old

Once I was seven years old
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Izzy

"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind" C.S. Lewis

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#504641 - 12/06/16 08:52 PM Re: some song lyrics (maybe triggering) [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
john22 Offline
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Registered: 10/16/06
Posts: 232
Loc: Europe-Belgium
Thanks Izzy for this song. For reasons of convenience:

Lukas Graham: "7 Years"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHCob76kigA
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"Men are not prisoners of fate, only prisoners of their own mind" - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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