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#82377 - 01/29/04 11:39 PM Conversation to an Empty Chair
crisispoint Offline

Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
Conversation to an Empty Chair

I stare across from where you were once,
Wondering if there was any way to make you stay.
I loved you, you know, aggrivatingly vulnerable
As you were.
But you didn't let me reach you, see what I saw
In you.
And I am angry that you decided to leave.
Gone in such a permanent way.
If you could see how many people loved you,
Wanted the best for you,
Showed you what a star you were,
You would have kept going, I'm sure.
Made me laugh with your little jokes.
Yes you did.
Didn't think you had that kind of humor
In you.
Much too young for that, you see.
Even in silence, you spoke volumes.
Comforting just by your presence.
Knowing that you were listening.
Just not understanding, I see that now.
I wish I'd seen that sooner.
Now, I'm stuck with an empty chair for company.
Smoking and drinking and missing you.
Not enough alcohol and tobacco in the world
To make me forget you.
And the only thing I want in life
I can't have.
To tell you, "I love you" one more time.

Dammit, Jay, I miss you and I'm angry with you.
Just want to say "Peace and Love" once more to you.


There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies

#82378 - 01/30/04 04:55 AM Re: Conversation to an Empty Chair
G5 Offline

Registered: 01/12/04
Posts: 204
Loc: New Jersey
This hits home. I'm crying for him.


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#82379 - 01/30/04 05:22 AM Re: Conversation to an Empty Chair
James_dup1 Offline

Registered: 04/13/02
Posts: 1332
Loc: Wyoming
WOW, Im having to dry my eye's after reading that. \:\( . I sure do miss Jay. Him and I realy didnt talk much but we did some. And now I'll never get to know him better \:\( . Yet one more brother taken from us by the sick sub-human's that gave this crap to us.

I have more issues than Rolling Stone!


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