When I first saw this it took me a while to figure out what I was seeing of myself. I think I have it now.
Sometime recently I posted a casual reference to myself as a man here somewhere. When I saw my post, it occurred to me that I had never before referred to myself as a "man" so casually like that. It was always a deliberate thing, and I felt like I was fraudulently claiming that title. I read recovery books that say, "How do you define yourself as a man?" or "What does being a man mean to you?" and I realize that they're not applicable.
Until just now.
"Telemachos, your guest is no discredit to you. I wasted no time in stringing the bow, and I did not miss the mark. My strength is yet unbroken…"—The Odyssey, translated by W.H.D. Rouse