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#80857 - 10/06/02 05:20 PM Nothing
James_dup1 Offline

Registered: 04/13/02
Posts: 1332
Loc: Wyoming
As the day comes to an end
You lay on your bed
No sound nothing
No light nothing
You lay there in the quite
You close your eyes
You can hear your heart beat
You can hear your breathing
Your mind starts to drift in the quite
You go to a place in your mind
A place only you know
A place a moment in time
Burned into your memory
Burned like a brand on a cow
You lesson to your heartbeat
You wonder if it beat that day
That one day in your mind
That one day that you stopped being a child
That day you willed yourself not to cry
That day you willed yourself not to feel
You try to hide from it
It finds you every night
You can hear the sound of your heartbeat
You wonder could you will your heart to stop
You wonder if you could will your lungs to stop filling with air
How you long for the day
The day that life finally wins
Youve fought a good fight
No light at the end of the tunnel
They say there is
How long must you fight to find it?
How long must you walk this road?
How you long for the day that you can will your heat to just stop
How you long for the day that you can will your lungs to stop filling with air
How you long for the day that it is all over
With no sound
No light
No places in your mind to hide
No places in your mind to scare you
No places in your mind to control you
Just to close your eyes
Just to sleep
Oh how I long for that day

I have more issues than Rolling Stone!

#80858 - 10/07/02 12:13 AM Re: Nothing
orodo Offline

Registered: 03/15/02
Posts: 735
Loc: Imladris, The Safe Haven of Ar...
Incredibly moving James. You have put to words exactly how i feel everynite. Thank you.

It is better to be Dragon Master than Dragon Slayer. Some Dragons are meant to be mastered, others meant to be slain. Odin, Great Spirit, God, grant me the wisdom to know the difference. "May the Valar guide and bless you on your path under the sky"

#479286 - 03/17/15 09:16 PM Re: Nothing [Re: James_dup1]
victor-victim Offline

Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6387
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
been there.

thank you for describing that dark quiet place.

there is a disturbing comfort in this poem.

it feels like letting go.



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