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#79883 - 10/12/06 11:29 PM This bottle
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Trailing down his face are burning tears of defeat, trailing down his arms and back is a story written in blood. There was no happy ending in sight and the scarring only added to the wounds that he would never speak about.
To the pain that he only wrote about.
When I looked for him I found him at the bottom of a bottle, I knew he would be there… that’s why I drank it. I had lost him but there he was, this twisted version of me.
So many flaws that make him perfect, it drops me to my knees, he only wanted to make them happy but they couldn’t see the beauty, only the desire.
In his twisted version of reality a quiet whisper kept me sane.
But I lost my grip and I started to care.
Wishing for the chance that someone might be the salvation he needs, to open up his eyes, to show him just how much he means.
But damn him for numbing his way down the path of resistance.
Like a broken doll, so different but not so wrong.
So loved but so easily disposed of.
I realized I had resisted nothing.
So damn his soul and damn this bottle.

#79884 - 10/13/06 02:38 AM Re: This bottle
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Don't blame yourself bro. What's done is done, and you know as well as anyone that there were reasons behind the bottle. Tearing yourself to pieces now doesn't change what is past.

Respecting the new Jaysen and his right to happiness and a good life is what counts now. It was your choice to fuck things up in the past. Okay. But it has also been your choice to change things now. You have taken the big first steps. You are on your way.

THAT is what is important now.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#79885 - 10/13/06 10:23 PM Re: This bottle
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680


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