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#79672 - 08/26/06 11:16 AM What she did - triggers
FormerTexan Offline

Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 12155
Loc: Denver, CO
You were supposed to care for me
Shelter me from harm
Instead you had your own agenda
Causing me alarm

I look back now and see
How you used me for your gain
I知 angry at you for this hurt
Oh yes, you caused this pain

Mom, how could you think
Revenge would go through me?
I知 your son, I知 not your foe
But I cannot make you see.

I did was I was told back then
Obeyed no matter what.
Tonight I see the consequence
How deep my heart was cut

I知 in distress now mom
To you I cannot turn
You池e the cause of tonight痴 pain
All I can do is burn


Money talks, but all it tells me is goodbye.

If I could meet myself as a boy...

#79673 - 08/26/06 03:51 PM Re: What she did - triggers
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Man does that poem hurt. I can feel it from a thousand miles away. Your Mom was the person you needed when you were hurt, and instead she was the one hurting you. I'm so sorry.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#79674 - 08/26/06 08:24 PM Re: What she did - triggers
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821

I知 your son, I知 not your foe
I think that's the saddest line from this whole episode, FT. The fact that she couldn't see what all this was doing to you, and was abusing you as though you were the enemy instead of the son she should have been nurturing and loving. And being a child, you did what you were told because that's the only thing a child knows to do - especially when the attack is coming from someone they love and trust. {{{Andy}}}


#79675 - 08/30/06 01:31 AM Re: What she did - triggers
ForeverFighting Offline

Registered: 02/09/05
Posts: 1253
Loc: New Mexico, USA
Wow, Andy. I'm glad I checked the poetry section here. It hurts so much. My heart pains for all that was done to you.

I'm sorry your life had to lead you here. Please take care.


"This search for the truth--it's not for the faint of heart."--Goren on 'Law & Order: CI'
"The former things will not be called to mind, nor will they come up into the heart."--Isaiah 65:17


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