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#78898 - 07/16/04 01:04 AM Bluebells
Leonatomi Offline
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Registered: 07/10/04
Posts: 24
Loc: England
Bluebells in the woods, covered in drops of rain,
Little boy no longer hurting, no more pain,
Lost soul in the spirit world, come back to me,
Give me back my memories so I can be free.

It's been thirty-five years since I saw you last,
Little dead boy hidden in my past,
We used to be together, you and I,
Before that day came when you left me to die.

Lost soul from yesteryear, how did you hide all your fears,
I've searched for you in my emptiness through oceans of tears,
You were my child, my life, the spirit inside of me,
How I have missed you all these years, since you broke free.

They hurt you badly on the day we did depart,
There nasty cruel deeds, sad people without a heart,
The cold hearted people, who controlled your mind,
With so much anger inside them, hurtful deeds, so unkind.

#78899 - 07/16/04 05:47 AM Re: Bluebells
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
That's a very good work, Leo. It made me think about myself as a child and how detached I feel from that person who was me. It's like when I look back at him, he's a different person to me.


#78900 - 07/16/04 10:21 AM Re: Bluebells
Leonatomi Offline
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Registered: 07/10/04
Posts: 24
Loc: England

Thanks for your thoughtfull opinion. I guess that's the point isn't it? most of us are not the same person, only in a physical sence. I found loads of photographs a couple of years ago at my parents house and took them all away. There are a few of me and my brothers etc. I have looked at all of them time and time again and they mean nothing to me. I look at pictures of me and I might aswell be looking at someone else. None of them seem to hold any memories for me.

I was hoping when I took them away that I would be able to remember some parts of my childhood, but that didn't happen. How the heck you can loose 98% of your memories from age two to twelve is beyond me. That for me is the hardest bit to live with, but I will keep searching....


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