The agony is not so bad today.
Where does it go
The hurt and pain
On days it doesn't hurt so bad
On days the pain is very dull
Still down inside
But nothing piercing through the side?
Does pain get tired, too?
Does agony need time to gather up resources
Regroup before striking out again?
Is this the calm before the storm?
Such a good day with no screaming going on inside
No angst to spread up through my brain
No child to calm
No eyes to see
No father coming after me today
But then it feels like maybe not
A whole day free
A whole day with the sun and breeze
And laughing freely
Really laughing....not pretend
Not laughter floating over pain
And we can always hope tomorrow will be the same
And, if not
I've had a rest
A real one
So, bring it on!
Do your best to knock me on my ass!
I've had a rest now
I can fight
You had me....I was down....way down
But now I feel the strength to fight again!
Now, let me get back to my day
My happy day
My breezy day
Not one second will I waste of it
I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.