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#78811 - 07/11/04 09:21 PM Unworthy (TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline

Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts

Unworthy, unworthy I am
of your love, care, compassion.
If you knew the foulness of my self,
The contemptableness of my heart,
You would flee from me.
Mock me.
Beat me.
Laugh and shun me, for I am worthless.
The lowest garbage-eating tramp is
Preferable to me, because I am
So worthless, shabby.
My heart knows nothing of what you speak
For it is filled with a horrid agony
Created by lust. Lust of others,
Lust of self.
My mind, for all it's pretentions, amuses
Itself with images, thoughts, desires,
Along with dreams of nevermore.
What I cannot have, because
I surely don't deserve it.
Kick me, beat me, chase me from you
Because you don't want me near.
I'm deadly, toxic.
Why do you hold me, try to stop me?
Don't you KNOW what I am?
Doesn't it matter that you love an animal?
A beast that walks on two legs?
Why? It's such a contempable thing,
To love a contemptable thing as me.
And yet you do, and I wonder



There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies

#78812 - 07/11/04 11:06 PM Re: Unworthy (TRIGGERS!)
Ivanhoe Offline

Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907

Hitting the nail right on the head with this one.

Could be my theme song...I know that Ranata will agree...she'll put this one in her folder, I know.



"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."
George Eliot

#78813 - 07/12/04 09:37 AM Re: Unworthy (TRIGGERS!)
Malidin41 Offline

Registered: 07/01/04
Posts: 140
Loc: Utah
Hello my friend, I would just like to say that you are not worthless by any means. You are a very special and unique person that deserves all the love this world has to offer. I know how you feel, I felt this way for a very long time and still do at times. But I promise you non of it is true. WE ARE NOT WORTHLESS. We are people that never deserved what we got. Hang in there my friend and if you would ever like to chat pm me anytime. I really liked your poem and as I said above I can definitly relate. Thank you for sharing, your friend malidin.

Mother of the kingdom of silence I have obeyed you long enough!!!


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