You are right to talk about whatever bothers or frightens you. And I think it's very important to talk at times like that. When I was a kid and considered suicide it seems like it was always when I felt alone and invisible, with no one to turn to and say "This hurts so bad".
Just keep talking my friend. And remember that suicide is the abuser's ultimate victory, not just over the lost survivor, but over a little piece of all of us.
You are not just valuable TO us, you are valuable as a part of who we are and what we represent. There's a great old spiritual about this: "Let the circle be unbroken".
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)