You've given so much here; asking for a prayer or two seems so little in return.
If there were a hierarchy of prayers, and I actually saw one the other day, a prayer for another, often called, a prayer of intercession, is second only to a prayer of thankgiving. It is the prayer for ourselves that takes third place.
So, with that said, I'll say a prayer of thanksgiving for your contribution here and a prayer for you to have the strength and courage that you say that you need.
Don't forget that sometimes it's the "trial" and dialog that takes place that brings the most healing and understanding.
Rest well, brother, and may healing and confidence return to us all.
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."