Today I am really sick and missed church today; probably won't be on here much either. But I had to share this. I listened to most of "America at Worship" (I admit I "slept in church" some
!), two hours covering briefly excerpts of about 7 worship services. Incredibly every one of them, all different denominations, were good, uplifting & relevant. Really gives me hope for the church.
In particular, Rev. Jeremiah Wright of Trinity United Church of Christ in Chicago preached about the importance of "Review, Release, and Renewal." Kinda what I've been doing thru therapy.
Rev. Wright told about a woman (call her Sarah)who had been sabotaging every relationship she got into. Always something wrong with the other person, something missing from their relationship. Even with her husband & children when she got married & started a family of her own.
Thru therapy Sarah, in "Reviewing" her life, recalled an incident at school. On some isolated back steps between classes a teacher she had a nine year old's crush on stalked her & sexually abused her, threatening to kill her if she ever told anybody.
Sarah was punished by the school for not running the between class errand she had been on, and for not returning to class that day. Then her parents punished her. She was unable to say a word in her own defense. All those she trusted to protect her punished her and let her down.
No wonder Sarah could not trust, could not let anybody get close, and pushed people away by sabotaging the relationship when they did. She did not want to get hurt or abused ever again.
Does any of this sound familiar?...
In therapy, Sarah went thru a process of
"Release." Her T had her go back to that terrible time, after the teacher abused & threatened her. She was again sitting on the steps crying, afraid to go anywhere or see anyone or do anything.
Only this time she in therapy pictures Jesus coming down the steps to her. At the T's urging, she lets Jesus sit with her on the steps and cry with her. Then she lets Him put his arm around her and comfort her.
Thus Sarah was able to release all the hurt, pain,
anger, bitterness, and suspicion. She was able to begin the process of the "Renewal" of her life. She restored her marriage & family life, and first & foremost herself.
Of course some of us prefer other types of therapy
and ways to work thru abuse memories as they come to us in order to renew our lives.
Some might use some form of the above-mentioned visualization therapy but focus on a different event or vision. One might choose to see another religious figure than Jesus, someone we look up to, a family member or friend we can trust. We may choose to see ourselves as healing adults, there on those steps comforting, loving & reparenting that abused child who is still with & within us.
This message was powerful & helpful for me. Reminded me of something I'd already read about & been encouraged to do. Now it's time to review that book and my life, do some healthy releasing, and take further steps in renewing my life.