Because we do not post on survivor stories I am writing to you here.
Welcome to MS ORG. I am truly sorry for the reasons that have brought you here but am glad that you found us.
Like you I found this organization accidently last January and have never regretted it. You will find only compassion, understanding, support and brotherly love in the best meaning. We come from all ethnic backgrounds, from all over this planet, all walks of life, all sexual persuasions and religions backgrounds. We are all here to move forward in life and live it not merely exist in it. So relax, post, read and join us on the road.
I can hear your pain in your post. Now that you are with us you are never alone again. We are with you.
Additionally you have to know that what happened was not your fault, never was and never will be.
There is a lot of information available on the cover page of MS ORG.
In particular a lot of articles contained at this URL http://www.malesurvivor.org/Professionals/index.htm
Once again welcome to the finest group of people it has evern been my priviledge to know and be associated with and it now includes you.