For the purpose of understanding the Russian literature culture, I seriously recommend reading Venedikt Erofeev's poema Moscow to the End of the Line (Rus.: Moskva-Petushki). Yes, I could see the survivor's manners in the main character. He is an alcoholic and also quite an intelligent man.
When you feel all alone and unhappy, turn to you Inner Child and talk to Him.
You will see He can comfort you like nothing else!