Firstly, I have not read all of this, but we each have anger, I hate exploding with rage, but people do not like it when I do.
It is not that I like to do it, because it hurts me to do it. Most of my anger was dealt with over the years through positive dispersal.
This place is here for us to help each other. It is not a clique, friedships are built on trust and trust alone. The second that trust is broken, is the end of trusting.
Hey, I have been that way since 10yo, some here have dealt with it in earlier years, and through much more broken and twisted childhoods, that I could never in my wildest dreams come to terms with.
The last month here at MS for me has been hard. I seemed to have made a lot of enemies, broke the trust of people I didn't know trusted me and may have hurt children, the people who need the most help. I feel terrible. But ironically, what has helped me post here at all lately is the fact that many people probably don't even read my posts anymore
Why hurt them in the first place? I cant even think of the hurt they young guys go through, because I only know my own hurt, and what I read here.
What is it like for them here, when they are amongst adults? The same as adults who brutally hurt their bodies and minds.
They want to be part of a group that can scorn them and mock them. I think not.
I learned to get some trust back, simply by finding this place, and finding a great group of guys who show empathy through their own hurt.
These guys are here to understand deeply held feelings that happened when nobody was there to share the burden of grief as defenceless children.
Yhat is what this place is built on, and nothing else. If you bear that in mind, then you are someway along the road of making friends.