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#73433 - 06/16/05 11:13 PM intimacy / issues / relationships / thinking
conor Offline

Registered: 11/01/04
Posts: 10
Loc: Dublin, Ireland
I am kind of in a relationship at the moment and everything seems to be going well (one of my talents, I can pull the wool over anyones eyes, better than Michael Jackson and co.). I am not sure how my performance in the relationship is though. Performance in ALL aspects I mean. It is my first relationship and I am doing my very best to be a good Ďpartner?í. I have intimacy issues but have managed so far to just go with the flow and pretend like I'm normal about it. I am a very cautious person. I over think everything, ďif I do/say something, I feel heís gonna think, why did he do/say thatĒ. I donít think that makes sense but what I mean is. I feel I cant initiate anything intimate, be it a touch on the arm or a kiss so god forbid anything further. I think that when he initiates it then IT is ok! But if I do then Iím dirty cos I want something! I really donít like that I feel like this and I get nervous and anxious when in the situation where there shud be some sort of physical contact. He is great I have to say. Everything about him is so natural and cool. Iím learning in some ways from him. But he doesnít know about my SA. Why would I tell him? My first thought is (and I know it shouldnít but it is) that if he knew then heíd run for his life. I feel he will think there is something wrong with me and heíd rather a normal boyfriend. So many reasons to not say anything, so for now Iím staying quiet. We are Ďseeing each otherí for over two months now but itís nothing serious. Although I would love it to be.

Itís funny, just before Christmas (before I came out) I was saying how I would never be interested in a relationship with a guy. That all I thought about was the sex. How that coin has flipped is beyond me!!!!!!

Just thinking out loud really.


#73434 - 06/17/05 12:50 AM Re: intimacy / issues / relationships / thinking
sophiesdad Offline

Registered: 04/30/05
Posts: 462
Loc: Florida

There are no unresolved issues - they just didn't resolve themselves the way we would have liked. "Grinder and Bandler - Neuro-Linguistic Programming"

#73435 - 06/19/05 04:48 AM Re: intimacy / issues / relationships / thinking
Rustam Offline

Registered: 10/27/04
Posts: 474
Loc: UK
Hi Conor,

Glad to hear that you are in a relationship, much better than just sex, how the coin has flipped indeed, sounds good. Itís your first so itís a new experience and bound to have some difficulties even without the sa. He probably wouldnít run if he knew what happened to you but that doesnít mean you need to tell him. If he brings up or seems to notice that you donít initiate anything you can assure him that its about you and not about how you feel about him without telling him why this is a difficulty for you. It is never dirty to express how we feel or to want to be physically intimate with a partner but I understand the feeling all too well.

Good to hear from you and good luck with your relationship.



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