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#73152 - 03/26/05 10:05 AM hopeful for help
Ready2MoveOn Offline
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Registered: 03/26/05
Posts: 3
Loc: Illinois
I am sitting alone at my home at almost 3am, not able to sleep. My lover who has been my partner for 13 years just left which has brought my childhood memories to the surface once again. I am an adult survivor and only came to remember and realize that two years ago. I have endured flashbacks, depression, self-medication, and now due to all of these feelings I take blame for my partner leaving me.
I am usually a better writer. I am finding that many areas of my life are impacted by all of this. So I leave it here, please let me know that I am not alone in having to go through all of this. I haven't joined one of these sites but I am sick of feeling like the only one who ever had this happen.

#73153 - 03/26/05 10:37 PM Re: hopeful for help
Mark R. Offline

Registered: 02/27/05
Posts: 28
Loc: Santa Cruz, CA
Hi, You are not alone. We are here, all of us. All of the hurt little boys, just like you. If I could I would offer a hug. This is a wonderful site. Go back and read the old postings. It helped me to learn that I am not alone, that my hurts and fears are shared by so many. It's true, there is safety in numbers. This is a safe place to share.

In others we find strength to face our monster, in helping others we can become the giant that defeats the monsters.

#73154 - 03/29/05 05:42 PM Re: hopeful for help
Rustam Offline

Registered: 10/27/04
Posts: 474
Loc: UK

No you are not alone with any of this, our experience is all too common. Welcome to this site, the thing I appreciate most here is that I feel less alone and that my experiences and feelings are not so weird after all.

Hope to hear more from you,


#73155 - 04/05/05 04:54 AM Re: hopeful for help
Bobby Offline

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
Neither you or your partner are to blame for his leaving. You are both victims of your SA. I'm so sorry that this has happened to you. You are indeed not alone. Come here and talk often. The loneliness of this thing is horrible. Everyone here knows that and everyone here will do what he can to help you see that you really are not alone. Bobby

I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.

#73156 - 04/07/05 07:50 PM Re: hopeful for help
bkeithb Offline

Registered: 03/23/05
Posts: 63
Loc: Milwaukee
Can only say "ditto" to what has been said already. You're definitely not alone. Many of us have either been where you are or ARE where you're at right now.

You've come to the right place! Keep coming. It helps me and I know it will help you too, friend.



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