Welcome Sam. Unfortunatley I don't know a T in the Chicago area. This website has links to therapists in different part of the country.
You can also find a lot of support here from other abuse survivors if you are looking for support. I am very happy that you are reaching out for help. Many of us have gone or are actually going through similar situations, an also share similar abuse stories.
In recovery, people recommend to take things one day at a time. I hope you can find the help you need. If you think you are in a crisis, contact any available local mental health hotline. All I can offer you is support. Fell free to post as much as you need to share. Trust me, we know surviving abuse, we understand how it feels, and the crazy things we do to cope with it.