I told my uncle about my abuse...
I went to him and said I needed to talk to him about something and he said sure and we sat down, and almost immediately I began to cry which really ashamed me but I couldn't stop. I wasn't crying so hard that I couldn't talk, though, so I just opened up my mouth and shoved the words out before I could change my mind and I said "Naomi sexually abused me when I was a child." (Naomi is my mother and my uncle's sister.) He was quiet for a moment and then he hugged me and said that he was very sorry. I asked if he believed me. He said that he did believe me because he knew that Naomi could do that and that it sure explained a lot of things about me.
I told him (in as few words as possible) that she had prostituted me and had incest with me. I told him that I was very ashamed and almost nobody knew about it. He hugged me again and told me he was glad I trusted him enough to tell him. I told him there were a lot more things like that that had happened to me throughout my life but I was not ready to talk about them yet. He said that he understood and that anytime I was ready he would be here for me. I was feeling all shaken up so I told him I needed to be alone for a while and then I went downstairs and was kind of numb for a while and then I got onto the message boards. I waited a little while to gather my thoughts, then I made this post.
I'm still shaking but I feel amazingly relieved as if (though it is a clichéd phrase) a huge burden had been lifted off of me. My uncle was very gentle and understanding with me about it and he didn't try to force any more information out of me. I had hoped he would take it well but I didn't even expect him to be THIS understanding!
I hope that it really sank in, though, and that he will not suddenly realize later that his sister is a pedophile and has subjected children to horrible ordeals and become very upset or angry. He knows Naomi is very sick and is capable of awful things. I suppose he probably suspected all along that I had been abused but that he was waiting for me to say something. It was the same way when I came out to him; I thought I was telling him new news but I think he had known for a while. He is like that, I guess.
Well... I really did not say much to him, but I said enough that he now knows about my SA. I think I need to lie down for a while... that took a lot out of me, way too much, I had no idea it would make me so tired. It is a good tired, though... I feel relieved and good but very exhausted.