Despite the fact that we share the same avatar, I could also share the words you used to describe your self. I think it is harder to accept yourself when you don't quite know who you truely are. It's like your stuck in some inbetween world where nothing makes sense. Try as you may, nothing seems to ever make you understand. At least if you know who you were you could deal with it and then move on. But that's not quite the case because nothing is that cut and dry.
Well, things seem to be getting better for me but that's not saying much. Those pessimistic days still cloud my head.
"It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end."
--Ursula K. Le Guin
"Mental health is a commitment to reality at all times."
--M. Scott Peck