i must admit, as much as i want to be perfectly solid -

i know i am not - perhaps right now - in particular - a lot os stressers -

both good and bad - i don't know - why i am s

it's tough to hurdle - the bad feelings i have about not feeling grounded at times -

and this in a sense triggers - more proof that -

of the silly ideas that no one will love me - (a dumb thing)

i am learning some good lessons in life - and yet - i think - i need to keep open to the idea - that - i'll ever f*ck up -

it's my nature - my human nature -

but - i don't need the response to my humanity -

to be brow beating - and hurting me -

- that's never a good idea. - just ideas - really tired - here - and fudge -

i need some more sleep


"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous