We can't be strong all the time; we all feel vulnerable and "little" from time to time. And perhaps that's a healthy thing; it allows us to consider and acknowledge our limitations. What's very positive here is that you are using this as a constructive opportunity: as you say, "to be brave enough to explore some pragmatic thinking".
Sounds good to me!
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)