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#70104 - 04/17/06 04:29 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
shadowkid Offline
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Registered: 11/18/05
Posts: 2437
since i am not gay this is just my opinion ,but for me the abuse made it impossible for me to ever knowingly have sex with another male ,.the thought of it is a huge trigger for me.please dont misunderstand me i'm not anti gay ,not at all ,i dont think the abuse could make you gay unless it was enjoyable ,which i'm sure it was not,. adam

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#70105 - 04/17/06 05:33 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
johnsurvived Offline

Registered: 11/20/05
Posts: 332
Loc: Arlington, Virginia
Blake, here's another great question that gets complicated depending on who you're speaking of. I suspect I was born with an innate tendency toward a homosexual orientation, and I don't think the abuse played a major role in determining which way I went. There are gay men, straight men, and in-between men. There is also the fact that identifying as one or the other doesn't preclude behaving in ways that are outside the definition we identify with. There are straight men abused as boys by men, or by women; gay men abused as boys by men, or by women; bisexual men who were abused by men, or by women -- and I don't think any man in any of these categories came out of his childhood abuse experience without some very fundamental questions about his orientation and what the abuse did or did not mean with regard to it.

How to tell? Again, I don't think there's a one-size-fits-all answer here. I can imagine having sex with a woman -- indeed I have done so on a handful of occasions -- but I cannot imagine being in love with a woman, nor would I want to wake up day after day knowing I was building and sharing a life with a woman. This, more than anything, is what confirms me in my orientation and helps me understand that no, for me at least, it was not the abuse that "made me gay." I find it an interesting question, and hope men who are gay, straight, bi, or just plain not sure what they are, will come and check in on this topic.


Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards; for our vines have tender grapes. Song of Solomon 2:15

But let justice roll down as waters, and righteousness as a mighty stream. Amos 5:24

#70106 - 04/17/06 05:34 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
Rustam Offline

Registered: 10/27/04
Posts: 474
Loc: UK
I donít believe so Blake, if it did why wouldnít it make all boys who are abused gay, also most gay people werenít abused so the reasons people are gay cant be about abuse. It does impact our sexualities whatever they are. It makes knowing our true identity hard, it makes sexual intimacy and our ability to love; gay or straight more difficult.

I wouldnít care if the abuse had made me gay I am very happy with my partner and wouldnít change my sexuality even if that were a possibility.


#70107 - 04/17/06 05:59 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
Russ2 Offline

Registered: 10/28/03
Posts: 77
Abuse does not make us gay.

However, one's sexual orientation may play a role in some abusive situations (i.e. easy prey).

#70108 - 04/17/06 09:45 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
relaxingpiano Offline

Registered: 02/06/06
Posts: 53
Loc: Miami FL
I once asked this question in an interview of a well known author. His reply, being abused by a male doesn't make us any more homosexual than being abused by a female makes us heterosexual. That might be simple and somewhat blunt, but I've found it to be so true. And that was before I came to terms with my sexuality. It is a good way to look at it I believe. Sure there are the identity issues and getting to know one's self, but I like this simplified version.


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#70109 - 04/17/06 05:18 PM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
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I am convinced that being abused does not make one gay. The two may both involve homosexual acts, but apart from that they are very different.

Being gay isn't just about sex. Some boys think they might be gay because they get involved in sexual explorations with other boys and find these very pleasurable. But later on they find themselves attracted sexually to women and realize they are really heterosexual. Homosexuality is part of a boy or man's being and personality, it's intrinsic to who he is and what he wants and needs in life. If he is forced by the prejudices of society to deny that reality, his chances of being really happy in life aren't very good, I would think.

Abuse, on the other hand, is a felony committed by a criminal against someone else who is less powerful or is in a position of particular vulnerability. It isn't about sex; it's about trickery, lies, cruelty, manipulation, and misuse of authority. A survivor's recovery depends on rejecting that any of this is part of him.

To show how false the idea is that abuse can turn you gay, since both often involve homosexual sex, we might similarly ask if apples might grow on an orange tree, since both are fruits. ;\)

Much love,

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As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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#70110 - 04/20/06 11:05 AM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
Rabbit Offline

Registered: 12/07/05
Posts: 91
Loc: San Francisco
I believe that for me the abuse is at the root of me 'being gay.'

First, I need to explain what being gay is for me. I'm bisexual who is gay-identified. Some aspects of my abuse exprience have morphed into fetishes in my sexuality. Abuse of power relationships was eroticized for me.

Since I'm sexually adept with men or women, I was capable of choosing to gay-identify. I made this choice after a very intimate and loving relationship with a woman that ended abruptly when I realized I was being rough with her and fantasizing about being so sexually rough with my abusers as to share the pain they gave. By identifying gay, I spared innocent women my agression and at times gained retribution by expressing the raw, dominant side of things with partners who were male like my abusers.

My absolute terror that I might one day perpetuate my abusive experiences on a child was another factor in my choice of sexual expression. Back in the day, 'being gay' didn't include the possibility of child rearing.

So, while I don't attribute my sexuality to the abuse. I attribute the expression of my sexuality to my abuse, and that expression led to the choice to live a gay life.

Tossing this out there...just the way it seems to be for me.

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Only to someone who has the valor and daring to cut pieces of their soul off with a knife then weave them into a blanket to protect you

There are different wells within us, some fill with each good rain

Others are far, far too deep for that

#70111 - 04/20/06 07:18 PM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
ScottyTodd Offline
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Registered: 02/12/03
Posts: 1561
Loc: Pennsylvania
This is an interesting topic, controversial and yet not well researched. Therefore, I speak for myself (not as a therapist) and through my own experience. First I'd like to present some background.


I was sexually abused by both female(5 years older) and a male (3 years older) about the same time, I was age 5. When I told my mom what she did to me, nothing happened to us but she stopped molesting me. When I told about the boy abuser, they beat the heck out of me with a 'cat-o-nine tails' and called me "bad, evil" names. The boy did not stop abusing me for the next 8 years. I told my dad when I was 7 and he beat me again with even more names. I was exposed to sex pretty regularly. I was raped by a boy about 6 years older in a alley on my way to school but I never told anyone for years! I then became sexual with everybody who would "play doctor" - both girls and boys. I was always caught with the girls and had the sXXt beat out of me!! I was NEVER caught with the boys. When I was 12, I was caught having sex with a family friend (female) and was made to feel intensely guilty. My parents made me promise "to never do THAT again". THAT, I understood was to have sex with girls! Sure, I had the other 50% of the population left. I became exclusively homosexual from 13 through 20 - I left home at 19. I always enjoyed male company and began to experience female companionship (but my past vow was still strongly present)! I met a girl (woman) when I was 22 who was very attractive and we became "involved". At 23 we married but I recognized I still felt both attractions. There was no place to go during that "ancient, societal naivete" in the dark ages of therapy so I struggled with it on my own. After 2 serious homosexual 'infidelities', I realized there needs to be a decision. Both ways was not ever going to work for me. After much wrestling with myself, I chose to stay in fidelity to my wife - now 36 years married. Still two sides of me lives within, one I choose to act upon.

I feel that my abuse, skewed parental punishment for sex with girls and not for boys, signals that my male perp was unstoppable with me, I had no protectors, absolute exposure and acceptabilty for homosexual activities during a sexually developmental period of adolescense and more - all combined to support my homosexuality. For me - and in this instance me only - I feel that my abuse strongly exposed me to M2M sex and made it acceptable for me (by vow to my parents) during my teen years.

There is no one answer, I feel, to did it or did it not "make me" gay. Our sexuality and orientation is one of the great mysteries in Mental Health and human behavior. Personally, I accept gay/bi/straight, etc. because no one can say it's wrong! No one clearly understands how things happen! Are the pro-gay contingent right - for some I say they are perfectly right. Are the "Exodus" transformers right - for some I say yes. Each person needs to find what's right for them. As John said, "one size doesn't fit all". Instead of trying to find "THE ASNSWER" to fit into, find the one that's a comfortable fit for YOU! What makes sense in life for you! What permits you to LIVE your life and feel good about yourself! Labels are good on cans because they are either one thing or another. People are too complex to put a label on and think 'that's that'. Does CSA MAKE PEOPLE GAY? Yes, No, Maybe - the answers are as plentiful as there are people in the world!


If you think you can or you can't - you're right!.......anon
It's never too late to have a happy childhood!.....anon
You're very normal for the abnormal situation you've been through..............S. Todd

#70112 - 04/20/06 11:57 PM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
Steven Heath Offline

Registered: 01/06/06
Posts: 81
Loc: New York City
blake.....what a thought provoking question.....i was abused by my uncle from when i was 5 years old until i was 16......i was also abused by a mentally disturbed woman when i was 10......this is just my opinion...and i can only speak for belief is that ultimately neither of these things had anything to with my sexual concept of sexual boundaries were certainly screwed up....and i was a mental basket-case for decades...but i always knew that i was gay..actually allow me to correct that.....i think gay is a label..and i don't know if i'm too keen on allow me to say that i always knew that i was attracted to guys....sexually and emotionally.......i had relationships with women as well as guys as an older teen....but sex with women was always a very conscious never just "flowed" for a lack of better terms...and when i had my first feelings of "love".....pure and innocent was for a guy.....i never felt that way toward any woman i dated......i think my abuse had nothing to do with my "gayness" in my case......i think my sexual orientation was always just part me for what ever reason...but not from the abuse......i hope this makes some kind of sense to you.......thanks......steve

#70113 - 04/22/06 08:31 PM Re: abuse is or is not the cause???
george of kent Offline

Registered: 10/28/05
Posts: 305
Loc: delaware
Just to add another "two cents" worth -- in my case, I know now that I was gay (more or less from birth imho)long before I was abused.
The fact that I WAS gay obviously attracted my particular abuser, but he didn't cause, change or "warp" anything in me in regard to my own sexual orientation.
Being in denial for a long time, I married and fathered three children -- but the innate "gayness" of my nature was always just under the surface. Pretending to be straight (for almost 30 years) didn't even begin to make it so.
This survivor always was, is now, and always will be homosexual.
And there's nothing wrong with that!
Love, etc.,

"We are only two and yet our howling can encircle the world's end.
Frightened, you are my only friend.
And frightened we are, every one.
Someone must take a stand -- Coward, take my coward's hand"
Arthur Laurents

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