i more or less stopped coming here (or at least posting here) a few months ago. i felt like therapy and abuse and all that stuff was taking over my life, like i was letting it consume all of my thoughts and energy and i needed to find a healthier balance. i kept seeing my therapist for awhile, but slowly stopped. its one of those things that you know is good for you, but life just gets in the way. like exercise is good, or eating well. but some days youre just too busy. i knew i wasnt 'over it' because i know i never will be, but at what point do you stop going to therapy? im starting to think maybe it was a bad choice. but i just dont know.
life has been super busy the last few months and i met someone i really care about and life is good. but now im starting a new semester at school and work is busy again and life is going on, and i feel like im starting to back track. my nightmares are coming back much more often and im having trouble sleeping. i get scared over stupid things all the time. and what scares is me is that now its not just me who has to deal with all this, its my boyfriend too. im scared he will freak out and not want to be around me anymore. i know i cant control that. but it still worries me.
i felt like i was finally getting a grip on things and moving forward. now im wondering if that was just temporary, and if every good time is going to be followed by more bad times. i dont want to be in therapy forever. i dont want to have to go back and start over. how long is long enough? when is it ok to stop?