oh dear - i am really neurotic and just realized that is who i am -
part of me wants nothing more than to be beautiful
and having a seamless experience would be a nice too -
but i get derailed confused hurt and neurotic as a result -

i am laughing at this - i am ok with it now:-)

"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous