There are a few good things happening with our constant Hell in our house. We got the phone paid last month + this month somehow it shrunk down to $6.??. I do not know how, but it happened. We had our electric bill up to $326 + did not know what we were going to do. Asked our church to pay it. That did not happen, but a place nearby helped us 2 days later that our church sponsors.
A frustrating time but oh well God pulled us though. We are through last month anyways.
Mr Edd [my hubby] is handling his old flashbacks with relative ease now. Edwin can be close to his old self, personality wise. Mr Edd still stutters quite frequently + his old flashbacks are still there flowing through his head. I am not sure if he is stuffing his past back in his head or what.
I am concerned not worried. :rolleyes: Mr Edd had triggered a new flashback today.
Ed + I have 3 super great support groups. This site is a great informational support group plus malesurvivor will tell you if what you are doing have done is/was completely normal. 2 support group is our church. I am just so very grateful. 3 support group is an accountabity group that meets 2 nights a week.
Mr Edd just today has called for group therapy. I think he called because I said I was going to call today + he wanted to find the right group therapy the first time. The 1 time he called any group T he got a Perp on the phone.
Mr Edd almost completely lost it.
He jumped in the shower + used all the hot water. I came to see what was wrong. SORRY, I through all that frustrations about that subject was gone. Oh well , we will have at least some group therapy once a month I think.
I will call just them tomarrow.
Both our parents know about the flashbacks coming + about the SA + are trying to be supportive without knowing about how sexually abused people normally react. We have a 12 year old boy living with my mom + step-dad until Mr Edd gets better monywise. They cannot have any of this shit on their computor anyways. Ed's blames his mom + dad. So his mom writes me short notes of encouraging me that she has always loved him since the day he was born. Good, but maybe not good enough right now.
Well I am running out of time here at the library. Talk to you tomarrow.
WITH MUCH LOVE,