Originally posted by FastForward:
The poem is good but it is difficult to predict how CSA mind receives any gift. Usually, one just waits and sees. Just because the intention was honorable does not mean that it will be seen that way. I do not think that it is a reflection on you but we all receive through the filters of our experience. Best wishes. Hope all goes well.
I agree - this is actually one of my favourites as I have had my own life of trauma too (see my other longwinded post!)
But be aware, that the CSA mind indeed filters things to often prove some things that it learned during trauma - that the world is an unsafe place, that people are out to get me and control me, that nobody is to be trusted, that I am awful and shameful, etc. It is possible that your ex may find some peace in the poem, but on the other hand he may feel that the Lord has abandoned him and that this is just another way of someone trying to control him. Its difficult to say which way he will percieve this poem.
I can see that by you sending him this poem that you likely have a strong faith in the Lord?? If so why not step back and let HIM step in.. pray to the Lord and pray that HE will help your ex in a way that none of us can do on earth? Let the Lord step in.. He is more great and more powerful than ANY of us here on earth. Let HIM do his job!! I have always found that I was being "called" in my moments of great pain, that was God's hand (sorry about the interchange of God/Jesus but I'm Catholic - we see God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit as one big giant spiritual ball of "all the same thing")..
Also you can look at the poem for yourself.. let the Lord pick YOU up and hold YOU in his hand and carry you when you dont feel like you can make it. Turn your faith and attention to the spiritual as we are called to do and put your attention THERE and not on a worldly pursuit (your ex)!!
And remember, God's time is God's time.. we are not one to know when and how his magic is working.. it can take a short time, or a long time to resolve, but we have to TRUST and have FAITH that the RIGHT THING will happen. It may not be the right thing for US but it is ultimately the right thing for God. Thats what faith is all about - not trying to fix the outcome but being faithful and trusting that God will stick by us with whatever happens!