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#5245 - 06/18/05 03:11 AM Childhood fears
reality2k4 Offline

Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6845
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
I just felt tonight that child abuse and the way I deal with it is not right.

It is like some different world, like i never lived in before, far away from maybe my own world that i have to face.

I had to pack in the work i love and the people i meet there, and they do not know why.

I just thought that the boy needed to just be who he is in life, and he needs space, just as he needed when he grows up.

He got hurt as a child and nobody cared. I suppose he never shared his pain and hurt as a child.

How can anybody ever share his pain and hurt? How can anybody share his fears, they cant.


Whoever stole the Sun, put it back and we'll drop all the charges!

#5246 - 06/20/05 12:39 PM Re: Childhood fears
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Registered: 06/03/05
Posts: 723
This sounds much like you are hurting, I am most sorry of this. I am not certain I have anything good to say, I do not understand still most what I am reading or feeling inside even myself. But, it is like, you are saying there is the small part that remains inside of you, who still hold to that fear? And that it is not reasonable for adult to feel or express it? I am sorry, from the person who translates for me tonight, that is how I 'hear' it of you. I do not know what to say to that. Because I sense it, such exist in me, and I do not know of what to do with it right now. Perhaps some time I will learn. I hope you feel less fear now.


#5247 - 06/21/05 07:49 PM Re: Childhood fears
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Registered: 02/09/05
Posts: 1253
Loc: New Mexico, USA
I thought you said it well. "I had to pack in the work i love and the people i meet there, and they do not know why." My mom said she lost her whole family when my sister and I brought up the SA and my dad's violent behavior. The fact is, she lost her whole family long ago when she saw what was happening and stood by and did nothing.

We're the ones who have lost everything. The biggest loss was trust. But maybe, in the end, we live closer to who we really are and the life we really want. By sharing here and with others, having friends outside and on this site--I consider you a friend--we have something better. There's no right or wrong way to deal with child abuse. We just stand together, mourn together, and do the best we can.

Take care of yourself, OK reality?


"This search for the truth--it's not for the faint of heart."--Goren on 'Law & Order: CI'
"The former things will not be called to mind, nor will they come up into the heart."--Isaiah 65:17


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