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#524166 - 06/01/18 01:38 PM Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry
bluesky Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/05/13
Posts: 688
Loc: NJ
Hi.
Sorry for not being here.
But just couldn’t.
Was doing ok for a wile.
Health stress.
Family health stuff.
Wife burnt out.
Friend disappeared found 6 days later in a hospital.
My mind it loosing its grip on reality.
Need a vacation.
Trying not to let the other me from taking over my mind.
It’s a battle and I hope that doing this will help because he says I’m weak for not dealing with this on my own.
He has no problems.
He was never abused.
He is an Alfa.
Not a woos like me.
I know that he is not real but it’s hard to think straight right now.
Need help.
Feel like just disappearing. But won’t.
Deeply depressed.
Can’t talk about it all in detail just sentences.
Just need love.
I feel used abused drained dry.
Every body needs me to help them.
Wife
Kids
Patients
Friends
Mom
Sister
Charities
The list goes on but what about me.
I need
I bleed
I am in pain
I can’t deal
One way or the other I will get my break
Break down
They build the guard rail after you go over the cliff.
I don’t expect anything from any one.
Life is a bitch
Keep fighting or die
Well I’m done
I’m righting all this and I want to erase it all.
But
It’s
All
I
Can
Do
Right
Now
_________________________
Bluesky

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
Frank Herbert

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#524167 - 06/01/18 01:45 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
Ceremony Offline
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Registered: 09/15/16
Posts: 2552
Loc: Minnesota
(((((((((((((((bluesky))))))))))))))))))

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#524168 - 06/01/18 01:49 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
Ceremony Offline
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Registered: 09/15/16
Posts: 2552
Loc: Minnesota
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#524169 - 06/01/18 02:37 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
Bluedogone Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 07/03/13
Posts: 1229
Loc: Southern US
We hear you bluesky,

Loud and Clear. {{{{{Bluesky}}}}}

As my mama used to say "There's more room outside than inside" So let it all out, Let it ALL out.
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When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure. - Peter Marshall

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#524174 - 06/01/18 03:27 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
Chris4TheMill Offline


Registered: 05/16/17
Posts: 615
Loc: NY / NJ Area
Happy to see you, friend. It's true, you have to take care of YOU first.
That is not a choice that others are going to make for you, you have to do that.
My hope is that you will be able to get the rest and peace that you need.

Best,

Chris

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#524176 - 06/01/18 05:06 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
manipulated Offline
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Registered: 09/26/14
Posts: 732
Loc: Great Lakes Wine Country
Self care is the first aid Blue. If you go down you CANT help. Hope you find that break soon. In the meantime - yep we know where you are and offer safe hugs if it’s ok?

((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
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.Be who you are and say what you feel
...............Because those who mind don't matter
............And those who matter don't mind.
.......................-- Dr. Seuss

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#524232 - 06/03/18 02:26 PM Re: Have a lot to say but can’t. Sorry [Re: bluesky]
bluesky Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/05/13
Posts: 688
Loc: NJ
Thanks Guys for you kindness.
_________________________
Bluesky

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
Frank Herbert

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