Had the surgery last Wednesday and stayed 2 days in the hospital. Long story short, the surgeon said that it went well... but then he dropped a bombshell on me. He said that he is sorry, but a freak thing happened that had never happened to him before - a portion of a needle broke off in my prostate(!). (I was of course upset as he is telling me this!). He said it might not do anything bad, or it might if it "migrates." He also said it would be risky to try to remove, and that they could not safely remove it during the procedure. But he wants us to monitor it going forward. I said great, but my insurance runs out in April....:(
So after seeking advice,I opened up a case with the hospital's Patient Services unit to review the surgery because I want to be covered in case I need treatment for this going forward. They have to do a full review and interview the surgeon, etc. It takes a month or more to get their review.
In the meantime, I am trying to focus on just recovering. The pain has not been too too bad, it is just very uncomfortable and there is bleeding. Also I will not be able to get an erection apparently for a few months (which of course is completely freaky). Plus there are other hurdles to overcome going forward.
But this is the first day I am trying to sit for any length of time. My emotions have been all over the place. I have had some very serious talks with God and am just telling Him all about what I am feeling, which hasn't been good lately. I am also doing a lot of reading, and just asking Him to give me the strength to get through this, I am just worn down by all the recent surgeries and rough times I have been having.
I know this sounds depressing, but it is just a(nother) season I hope. I am basically getting through this day by day but there are times I wake up and I just cannot get out of bed. I then tell Him that He needs to give me the strength to go on or it just isn't going to happen. He usually does.
O.K., I will end here for now but wanted to give an update. I am staying at a relative's house for the next few weeks. There's still a lot to be thankful for, even though life is very difficult right now. As always, I greatly appreciate everyone's prayers and support. I hope you are all doing well this week.