As i try to get in touch with what i feel
I never thought that feeling would feel so real
Real in the sense that it seems to be
There is so much unreality in me

I gave up numbing myself with the usual stuff
And still i realize that that´s not enough
All the survival mechanisms are still in place
Intrusive thoughts continue to stare in my face

Pointing out doubts and fear, lack of trust
Listen to these clear signs i know i must
Although overwhelming i'll continue to live
Cause i know that through all this - there is so much to give