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#506393 - 02/11/17 08:48 AM Sad boy (trigger warning maybe)
Tryingtolive Offline

Registered: 02/15/15
Posts: 792
Try to reconnect
Remember who I was.
He's not there.
No memory's are vivid.
Emotions seem distant.
I got through it.
Never thought it was bad.
Just something I forgot about.
I put it past me.
Never asked why it happened.
I enjoyed what was done.
So confusing.
Pleasure seeking.
exploring Who I was ?
Manipulated ?
Mental scars....
Along with the abuse
So many questions
No one with the Answers.
Left with fatigue and stigma.
Cant open up to the ones closest to me.
My character I always question.
Attractions I have afraid to explore
Relationships I can barely maintain
Constant search stay on high alert.
Hate feeling out of control.

A childhood lost
Teenage years escaping
Adulthood spent recovering what went missing.
It should be
A childhood Remembered
Teenage years exploring
Adulthood discovering

I've lost myself trying to remember myself
I've hidden myself trying to explore myself
I've recovered myself trying to discover myself

#506627 - 02/17/17 03:27 PM Re: Sad boy (trigger warning maybe) [Re: Tryingtolive]
lumes48 Offline

Registered: 02/11/17
Posts: 13
Loc: UK
Love it (well, I love the way you've put it into poetry, I don't love the experiences you're talking about, quite the contrary). Hope you're doing ok dude


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