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#505134 - 12/25/16 07:00 PM Holidays
Tryingtolive Offline

Registered: 02/15/15
Posts: 826
They come and go
For someone like me

No love in sight
Just fakeness I sense

Blindness to the roots
To my problems

Fake cheer
Hidden with in smile

Although it's quality time
And there is some sense of joy

It's just different
From my eyes

Love around
But not Found with in me
Happiness around
But not found with in me
Possitivity around
But not found with in me
The holidays through my eyes is just another day

#505136 - 12/25/16 11:32 PM Re: Holidays [Re: Tryingtolive]

Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 4117
We are about to call it a night. Love was abound today and sadly leaves tomorrow--but not before the night is over. Love is what sustains us--true love which comes from the heart, not guilt, shame or expectations and what one believes love is. Love creates a flutter, it creates a smile. I know as we go to lye we have something that is true--it is us and no one family or foe invades that time. Love is two and can be extended but not beyond the two who are truly interwined.

Sorry I am giddy for the first time in so long and had to check in. Tomorrow she leaves and then where will I be-the wretches who have taken so much til then that is their fare but tonight I feast on love and goodness--so strange to those who talk of such but do not live such a life. Til tomorrow I will be fulfilled with joy, lust and happiness. I wish the same to all.

Merry Christmas and a good night


#505137 - 12/25/16 11:45 PM Re: Holidays [Re: Tryingtolive]
Ceremony Offline

Registered: 09/14/16
Posts: 2683
Loc: Minnesota
Well, today I had the chance to see what others mean to me. I saw some family. I tried to be with my wife. I tried to make it nice. I tried to do the things I intended. Still, in the end, I have others, even if she's going to be unchanged.

#505139 - 12/26/16 04:17 AM Re: Holidays [Re: Tryingtolive]
Zappafan Offline

Registered: 12/23/16
Posts: 43
Loc: Canada
dripping of remorse
The family farm
Infected all
That strode past the shit smell
And spider filled woodpile

I escaped after a shame
And terror filled
45 fucking years
Of wasted me

I yearn for the young that grew there
Amidst the cruel realty
Of post depression haze

And yet what died there
Clings to me like a child sized shroud
That I await
It's dance upon an autumn wind


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