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#505091 - 12/24/16 10:05 AM Regret
Tryingtolive Offline

Registered: 02/15/15
Posts: 810
I don't think it will ever leave.
Making life Choices.
Day in and day out I'm always left with.
Certain decisions.
For some reason I always feel it.
Even if I'm happy I feel it.
Or what ever.
Regret is always there.
I regret how Iam.
My well being.
My health.
The elephant in the room.
I feel I always will be.
This truth I carry.
This emotion I feel
This topic I can't addres
This pain
This fucking depression.
I have days
I forget
But the regret is always there
It reminds me.
It keeps me from who Iam.
Social occasions I regret
A drink will do me right.
An escape from my regret.
The double whammy hits me.
After the buzz is gone.
Regret hits.
The booze
The life of the party.
None of that matters.
It's just me and my well being.
The regret.
But the regret never leaves me.
I'll never forget.
This place in my mind
A thing I can't accept about myself
The regret stays
As the pain enters again.
Just when I can feel again.
Drag myself deeper.
So hard for me to say no
The temptations
The easy way to escape.
Emotions I hide.
The act i mastered.
I'm okay.
I'm alright.
But my soul screams
The inner voice speaks saying I'm not.
But nothing I can say.
When I'm living with regret.

Can't enjoy life
Can't express myself
Can't love myself
Can't trust
It's so powerful
All my life I've lived with it.
And I don't understand why.

#505092 - 12/24/16 11:25 AM Re: Regret [Re: Tryingtolive]
woodenshoes Offline

Registered: 06/04/14
Posts: 577

Sounds so true for any of us. Sorry your hurting.


#505115 - 12/24/16 11:37 PM Re: Regret [Re: Tryingtolive]
Elad1 Offline

Registered: 01/12/16
Posts: 200
Loc: In The Treehouse
TTL, thank you for expressing how I feel as I can not access the words because they are locked in a box and buried into the ground a thousand feet deep.



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