I have a strange problem, which is manageable but very disturbing. I would like to know if some of you have the same experiences.
When I am in presence of a male that has some authority or power, I often have images of kissing him and having oral sex. These images do not arouse me, but I can't help them to show up. If the guy is older, it's generally worst, with more vivid images.
Paradoxically, I hate authority. I hate people that have power over other people, this is nottack themt even politic, it from the guts. I hate them hard enough to fantasize about way of killing them. If someone with authority is disrespectful, I can't help to go to his office and verbally assault him.
Needless to say, it is a very bad strategy for progressing in your work. But the fear that is clear in their eyes when they start to think I might be a dangerous crazy is priceless.
And when I live the office, image of me caressing the boss come back out of nowhere.
Did someone experienced similar stuff? How to cope with it?