Hello UB, I've read some of the Forum Guidelines and this .... is to help with men who want to discuss how their behavior is affected by CSA. It's not judgmental, like this Forum, we're all trying our best to work on our journey to healing.
At Risk Forum
The At Risk Forum is for survivors who have done inappropriate, harmful, or abusive behavior to others in their childhood or adolescence, or have acted out sexually through certain behaviors that may be causing shame. This is also for survivors who are experiencing feelings or thoughts of acting out sexually on another person.
Due to the sensitive nature of some of the discussions in At Risk, admission to post or read is by application to the moderator. You must be a paid member of MaleSurvivor (limited scholarship funds are available for those who cannot afford membership) and the person must let Don Laufersweiler know why he wants access. Information shared within this forum is to remain confidential and is not to be shared with anyone outside of this forum.
is from This page of the Forum Guidelines
the person must let Don Laufersweiler know why he wants access
And message Don can be done from his Profile Page
See that link to "Send a Private Message" in blue?
Click that and you can message him.