A LIFE IN PROGRESS
Pursuing a life of purpose, health, and JOY
What if All I Want is A Mediocre Life?

"What if...
I embrace my limitations and stop railing against them?
Make peace with who I am and what I need and honor your right to do the same?
Accept that all I really want is a small, slow, simple life?
A mediocre life.
A beautiful, quiet, gentle life.
I think it is enough."

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Do any of you struggle with this � wondering if you are enough? Hoping you are, because that�s all you�ve got?

Yes.

There is a voice inside my head, always telling me that I have to be more than what I am.

I cannot silence this voice. Ever.

Sometimes, I can ride this wave that pushes me to become better. Other times, I lose my balance, and the wave collapses on top of me, drowning me in shame, feelings of worthlessness, and thoughts of being a failure.

I silently wish for the mediocre life, yet every time I try to immerse myself in it, some force - I don't know what - tears me away from it. I long for it, but I can't stand it for too long.

I've found that the only way I can give myself a break from this wretched contradiction is to interact, as much as I can, with those who are content with who I am - people who aren't concerned with who I can be.

Husky

Yes.

I fall into the "comparison trap" all the time. Actively working to stop those thoughts when I realize that they're coming up.