Marc (I assume that's you first name!
There is NOTHING WRONG with what you feel and there's absolutely NOTHING WRONG with you! If there's nothing else I want you to hear, I want you to hear that.
I'm so sorry for what happened to you, believe me. But I'm glad you're here. You're not as alone as you think you are. The brothers come from all walks of life and are at all ages.
I was abused first when I was 11 years old and repressed a vast amount of it until last year. I've been dealing with the nightmares, flashbacks, recovered memories, you-name-it ever since. The toughtest thing I thought was that I was alone, that I was the only 37 year old adult male who was dealing with horrible abuse like it was yesterday.
Marc, you are not alone in this. You are also NOT A LOSER! You are a decent human being who got dealt some awful crap in his life and you're reaching out for help. How many other don't have the courage to do the same?
You are taking your life back from the monsters. This is a very courageous, noble thing. Never forget that!
You are a fine man and a worthy human being. What happened to you WASN'T YOUR FAULT! EVER!
My brother, you are welcome here whenever you want. I'm not in a happy place today (which seems to be happening a lot :rolleyes: ), but I want you to know that there's help a plenty and many brothers who understand and want you to be well.
I can't wait to see what you'll contribute here. I know it'll be a lot.
Now, when I meet someone here for the first time, I say something that I think we need to hear. We should've heard it more often, but didn't. Some folks are put off by it, but I mean it sincerely. I love you, my brother. There's no strings attached to that, and I want NOTHING in return from you.
Peace and love, Marc. And welcome.