I think as some time goes by you will be seeing some healthy ways to bring an end to the nightmare you have been thrust into.
I have a lot of confidence in you and your ability to recover, give yourself some time.
Keep talking, it helps.
Recovery is possible.
I asked him about this law he spoke of, he said,,, *watch* he then asked the others to share about their lives,,, the others talked of how things were for them, how things worked in their lives,,, and as they believed, it was so.